Becoming a normal person/player
I am 23 years old, getting 24 next month. I have been playing poker for about 7 years now. Basically I have been a microstakes grinder for eternity and thats only because I had an expensive so-called hobby or whatever. I used to smoke pot every day and in my country it costs 20€ per gram. So I spent like 500-600€ per month just to get high.
I have managed to build a bankroll to play NL100 a couple of times but mostly I have been playing NL10&20. That's sick.
But now.. I fell in love. Not its like the first time, but its more special now - I was willing to quit smoking pot. And that I have done. Been clean now for about 20 days (during the 6year smokingperiod there was a total of ~20 clean days). Took a little break from poker and my bankroll was spent on different places to live. We moved to the biggest island in our country (it is really nice and cool here + I don't know if its possible to get pot in here). Im sure if someone stepped in front of me with a joint, I could break and do a couple of hits, coz smoking weed is fucking awesome. But when you are constantly high from morning till going to sleep, it fucks you up. You have no motivation to get better, only to get money for weed/food/etc, but no extra. I am glad I found someone who literally fixed me (process still going on but I feel confident).
I feel like I am the best in microstakes (MicroGaming). I'll show some graphs just to prove it and I am eagerly waiting to get back to NL50 and then to the smallstakes. Ofcourse I make mistakes like any of us do, this is also one of the reasons of this topic/post. I am going to post some hands where I think I made a mistake.
So here goes. If anyone has questions about weed and why to quit it, feel free to shoot. I know it is really hard if you are in so deep and outside help could mean a lot!