to start off i did win at 50nl the first 80k hands at 12bb/100, wich was sick , and all of the sudden i hit a wall and kind of broke even for 50k hands, while having a decent winrate at 100nl,

Hard to say, but it did seem like the 50nl tables were more reg filled than 100nl

thats pretty sick. my plan was to stay at 50nl for a longer time, but it seems moving up as soon as its reasonable from a bankroll and winrate perspective seems like the more +EV to do

I'm fascinated by the way people structure their goals based on past experience and I think you have the right idea when it comes to adjusting yours @KinglyLion. And yeah, NL50 seems to be the bane of existence for many aspiring regs, but it's definitely not unbeatable and discipline that you've mentioned above will be crucial in the process. Good luck!

I had to move back down to 20nl...


My bankroll peaked at almost 2k when it happened. A huge downswing at 50nl. Like really huge. Combined with some B/C-game towards the end it resulted in me losing more than 20BIs. Probably more than 75% of them at 50nl. Especially towards the end i know that i wasnt on top of my game anymore. I dont know if i was a winning player at 20nl, but i was losing at 50nl for sure. It was especially rough because it happened so fast.

But this is already 1-2 weeks in the past. Towards the end of it i was pretty frustrated. Mostly because i was disappointed by myself. Sure i knew variance would hit harder at 50nl, but i questioned if i was good enough for it even when playing my A-game.

I knew i could easily beat 20nl, but i also knew i had to do something for my confidence, otherwise it would be tough to get back on track. So i booked an out-of-plan coaching session to review the downswing. This session helped me a lot. First of all it showed that i took some unnecessary lines that increased variance and even though they were +EV they certainly weren't optimal. Second of all we could find some leaks i have. That session helped me a lot and i felt way better after. A phrase ive heard JNandez say that stuck with me is "The best way to combat tilt is studying the game". That became some kind of emergency plan for whenever i would start to get tilted, and it worked very well for me so far.

Alright, so the 50NL dream didnt work yet, but it didnt die either, thats not even in question. To be honest, whenever i play focused right now i feel like i play the best poker of my life. The coaching sessions i had in the last weeks/months were all very productive, and i feel like i get better and better each time. My A-game should definetely be enough to beat 50NL right now, and i plan on going back as soon as my bankrollmanagement allows me to do so.

Until then i want to work on a few problems i still have.
1) Play my A-game more often. This is a thing i really want to improve. There are dumb things i do when i am not focused, and i want to cut out those mistakes. I just bought "The mental game of poker 2", maybe that can help in this situation.
2) Get more Volume in. Right now i have a lot of free time. I am working 10 hours a week, and this will even stop in the first part of february. But my poker dealer training will start in the second half of february, and from march on i will be a student. So my free time will be considerably less, and i want to get the best out of the time i have on my hands right now. This problem is connected to problem 1), because i stop playing when i dont feel like i am playing good enough anymore.

There is no graph in this post, and i want to move away from looking to much at my graphs in general. I feel like looking at daily/weekly, maybe even monthly graphs is just being too results oriented. As long as the bankroll is fine i shouldnt worry. I know that i can beat these games, and i should focus on constantly working on my game instead of looking at results. My risk of ruin should be very low because of my bankrollmanagement (take shot at 50nl when BR is 1.5k or above, move down at 1k, so 50BIs for a stake i am sure i beat comfortably, backed up by a 130k hand sample).

The only way is up. Who knows, maybe an upswing happens and i can be back at 50nl when i begin going to university. If not, then thats no problem. I fought my way through this experience, and came out stronger than before, and i am proud of that.
Sometimes mistakes cant be prevented. Errare humanum est. What defines you is what you make out of them.

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I am currently watching AdrianFenixx' stream, and he said something that got me thinking. In fact, it got me thinking so much that i wrote a 660 words essay to a friend, talking about Adrians hypothesis. LOL.
I dont want to write this down again just for this blog, so im just gonna copy the message. But first i need to explain some background stuff:

Right now my bankroll dropped back to 800-something. My last 50nl shot ended in a huge disastrous downswing. Part of it was obviously just bad variance, but a big part was me doing dumb stuff. At first not that much, but the more i lost the more i did dumb stuff. Just because i wasnt focused enough. Long story short, i had to move down. No problem. Then i also lost some more at 20nl because i stopped doing dumb shit and started focusing again. I dont think i am on top of my game again, but i am on my way. Currently i am playing 6 tables of 20nl on mpn, with some nice rakeback, you know the deal. But because of my reallife obligations (currently getting trained to become a dealer, will start working this march - will start going to university this march aswell) i dont have the time to grind whenever i want anymore. And my volume is declining a lot.

Right now is the point where what Adrain said comes into play:
"play zoom to learn faster"

The buddy i was chatting with didnt really get what that meant, so i decided to think out loud why i think this statement makes sense for my situation:

Some epic posts here and sorry I have not checked in for a while!

Seems you have the heart of a lion!!!